The long awaited day....Autumnal Equinox in Southern California and it is such a surprise. The sky blue and full of clouds after our first rain of the season. It is cool and crisp and I am totally in tune with the energy of nature with my new 12 mega pixel in hand.My best rainy day subject is my Wilson. I used an overlay from the photo mats first edition, mat #3 by Lori Giles to make this photo look like an Heirloom, which it will be one day.
My beautiful sister came by unannounced today to bring me some home made sweet rolls that she really should be selling, they are so good. She did this on a day when she was in pain due to an upcoming surgery and I realize I am loved......how lucky I am.
I am dreaming on this day of feminine energies, of the time when I can live off of the money I make with my creativity and spend all of my time working on something that is who I really am. If I need to win the lottery or how ever the money wants to come....my doors are open and so is my bank account.
Years ago, my home would fill with like minded travelers and we would have drumming ceremonies and celebrate the changing of the season. I miss those times, but I would not go back to them because my heart is filled with the now.....with the true passing of moments as they come and go and the peace that being here now brings most of the time. I miss Gene and Adam, Carole and Lonnie......I am learning to find the beauty in the unexpected and I would not trade being able to be who I am for any relationship with a man. Now, I could really have a friend who was also a man.....or not. That is not my focus now. I think of all the years that having a relationship was the driving force of life, and they seem far away now. I'm glad I had them, but I am wide awake now and it is Autumn.








